• 2:02 AM, Monday, September 04, 2006
i feel like crying now.but i cant.for the past few days.i felt so good talking to you.for the 97hrs 53mins.i hope that i can reverse the time.and wished that nothing had happened just now.it has got nothin to do with you.its all my own fault.i told you that i feel like crying.you dont believe.only when i said until it is very serious.and when there is tears in my eyes.you believed.you said"so must treasure you"(as in me treasuring you) but what for i treasure you when you dont treasure me at all.somehow i just lost my trust in you.i dont know which sentence of yours is true and which is not.i cannot distinguish them anymore.i felt like a fool.do you even care abt my feelings?i dont think so!you talked to her more than you talked to me.was i jealous?no.i wasnt.at last when i was high after playing with my friends.i talked to you again.all you said was k ok k ok k.all you care is her!you talked to her and neglected me.was i jealous?yes i was.but who will care abt me?you?NO!you said that you care for me.you sure?insecurity.hmm..
i start to suspect that what you said for the past 97hours 53mins(more than that) was just a pack of lie.i am so confused now.what is true.which sentence?all are false?
afterall,i dont blame you.i blame myself for trusting you.actually there are still many things for me to say but i just felt that i should not go on any further.i have to make myself clear that i am not being emotional now.well,shall let nature take its course.
I'mPISSED.I'mSAD.I'mJEALOUS.
